I've made it this far...

So today begins day four. Wow! I can actually see myself sticking with this! I had the yummiest shake this morning. I used the Dark Chocolate Silk this morning and added 1/4 c of strong coffee with 2 scoops of ViSalus drink mix and it was YUMMO! And it's a little nuts but i'm already down to 179.2. Yeah, that's 5.7#! Can I really have had that much water weight? It doesn't matter. When I did WW in 2002 I know my biggest losses were up front. I'm okay with that. I know that fewer calories in + more calories burned=weight loss and that's all I care about.

You know, i'm never going to be a pro-blogger. I do this for me, not for anyone else. I guess that means that my posts are basically brain dumps. Is that lame? I suppose not. I'm busy. Busy as a mom. Busy as a wife. Busy as an employee. Too busy. But it's important for me to document this so that when I look back in a month, or three, or six that it shows I did something for myself. Really that's the most important thing. Because I could have kept putting this off. Lord knows I have put it off for long enough as it is. I put it off because of the shame of reaching out for a potential solution. I could have done this in January and would be that much further ahead...that much bigger of a loser! But you can't turn back the clock. You can't think of what might have been. All I can do is look forward and get through it one day at a time. It's most definitely a struggle sometimes but I find I can push through if I concentrate on this one day. It's all I can do. It's the same with getting through my brother's death. Each day I focused on getting out of bed, taking care of my kids, caring for my parents and making it to bed again. These days the sun shines a little brighter, my load feels a little lighter, I know he is in a good place. Smiling and laughing and making people happy. He still makes me happy...

But this post wasn't supposed to go "there." I wanted to post my swimsuit picks for this summer. I so want to order a 10. I want to order something WITHOUT a skirt! For once in my post-kids life. Without further ado...

Cute from Down East Basics

Ah Lands End...you do swimwear so well!

Loft...who knew?

That's all for today...not that much inspiring swimwear out there after all! Come to think of it, I have a cute suit that I ordered from Lands End Canvas two years ago. Might have to see how that looks come June 1!