You know, i'm never going to be a pro-blogger. I do this for me, not for anyone else. I guess that means that my posts are basically brain dumps. Is that lame? I suppose not. I'm busy. Busy as a mom. Busy as a wife. Busy as an employee. Too busy. But it's important for me to document this so that when I look back in a month, or three, or six that it shows I did something for myself. Really that's the most important thing. Because I could have kept putting this off. Lord knows I have put it off for long enough as it is. I put it off because of the shame of reaching out for a potential solution. I could have done this in January and would be that much further ahead...that much bigger of a loser! But you can't turn back the clock. You can't think of what might have been. All I can do is look forward and get through it one day at a time. It's most definitely a struggle sometimes but I find I can push through if I concentrate on this one day. It's all I can do. It's the same with getting through my brother's death. Each day I focused on getting out of bed, taking care of my kids, caring for my parents and making it to bed again. These days the sun shines a little brighter, my load feels a little lighter, I know he is in a good place. Smiling and laughing and making people happy. He still makes me happy...
But this post wasn't supposed to go "there." I wanted to post my swimsuit picks for this summer. I so want to order a 10. I want to order something WITHOUT a skirt! For once in my post-kids life. Without further ado...
Ah Lands End...you do swimwear so well!
Loft...who knew?
